" God does not call the qualify, but He qualify the call "

Konbanwa minna-san!! Genki-desu??? hahaha, what the heck is that??! Maybe some of you guys will think this way.

“Hello everyone!! How do you do???” That’s what it means. ^^,

I got no class in the morning, so here i am, writing about something again.

Since i have no other thing that i can do, i tend to think a lot. Sometimes i like to think deeply, then it cause my head hurt and i feel like i want to explode. Lol~ what a bad personality i have. There are many thoughts and words that i want to tell to the other, but unfortunately, i often can’t speak it out. So i always end up writing. That’s why i write in this blog.

Okay, enough with the nonsense, today i want to share about God’s invitation to serve Him in a ministry. Firstly, i like to say that not only the people in a ministry can serve God, but each one of us is qualify to serve Him. To serve Him means not only serving Him, but we also serve to others. Because God is presence in every one of us. There’s no saying that, “wow, he always go to church, or he always go to gathering, he qualify to serve the Lord.” No!! It’s not like that! Each one of us is qualify in His eyes, to serve Him, to serve the others. Well, this is only my opinion about serving God. Maybe there’s others opinion that more good to explain it.

Okay, back to the point. Last year, on the December 2012, we have a Christmas party that being held by LifeFire Ministry. I always join their gathering, so naturally i will join this kind of events. Moreover, its my first time in joining an event like this, so i became excited. Before the event start, sis Debs approach me and said that I’ve been chose to become one of the junior leaders (means that i will join them to serve in LifeFire ministry). “Wow, what’s with this offer!”, I thought. I didn’t give her a straight answer because i don’t know whether to accept the offer or not. I have a reason actually, because i’m a type of person that don’t have much talents, i can’t speak in front of many people, i can’t sing well when i’m alone and i can’t play any instrument well, with this personality i have, how can i become one of them (see here, i’m trying to reject God’s offer)?

I took my time to think and pray whether to accept this. I also ask my senior about their experience in accepting this kind of offer. Among the seniors i asked, i’m being touched by this senior word.

              

                  Sis Epal: “God does not call the qualify, but He qualify the call.”

When i heard this, there’s a voice whisper to me to only accept this offer, and He will guide me in my serving. Well, after some time, i decided and told sis Debs that i accept the offer.

LifeFire gathering 2012
=> Credits to who take this pic! <=

            ð  Early life and He slowly answer my prayer

Well, regarding this experience i had, this is actually God’s answer to my previous prayer. On my early life as a high school student, i have no chance in joining church’s activity. There’s no encouragement from my family, no transport to my church if i want to join something, only cousins, friends and myself that want to seek God, want to seek Faith and want to seek Answers about Catholic Church. I know about Jesus when i was a kid, but not deeply enough. Just enough knowing Him as our God, that’s all. I received my First Communion when i was 13, and Confirmation when i was 15. But, i don’t know anything specific about my church. When i was 15, i began to have many questions and want to search something that can fill my heart. I join many camps and seminars, just want to seek what was missing in my heart, but i can’t join too many of it because of family matters.

 That was the time that i began to pray that i want to join many church’s activity and i have the desire to serve Him. Slowly my prayer began to be answered, when i further my study in Labuan Matriculation College. Many things happen, and my faith began to grow here, until today, in University Malaysia Sabah, many things happen that cause my faith to be strengthen. One of it is, He answer my prayer about wanting to serve Him in a ministry. Even though i want to reject it in the first place, but God’s call is bigger than my flesh desire, so finally i accept it. Like brother Jude said on the first day of the camp, “give Jesus a chance to step to your life!”.

To my dear reader, i’m not saying that joining many camps and seminars, and go to church every week can make your a Holy person. No, that’s not it. And i’m not claiming that i’m a Holy person. I still have a very long way to search God and i still have many scars in my heart. That’s why i’m joining this kind of events, because i want to be healed, to feel God’s love and more importantly, to strengthen my relationship with Jesus. Many of my friends and cousins (not all of them la) misunderstood about what i’m doing, and this make me sad, but i still pray for them to open their heart. However, it’s not their faults, because when someone who know you since you’re child, they know about all your pasts and personalities, good/bad. That’s why when you change, sometimes you need to deal with rejections from them, some of them cannot accept your changes because they know you too well.

Wow, its long! Hahaha. Well, enough for today, see you guys around! J

                                      I wrote this when i’m in Matriculation. >-<

Ada waktu untuk kita tertawa

Ada waktu untuk kita berduka

Semua yang terjadi,

Tuhan t’lah rencanakan untuk kita.

Ada waktu untuk kita gembira,

Ada waktu untuk kita tersungkur,

Semua yang terjadi,

Pasti ada sebabnya.

Dalam semua yang kita hadapi,

Tuhan selalu ada di sisi,

Dia takkan pernah tinggalkan kita,

Kerna Dia Allah yang pengasih.

                                                                           Ecen, KML 11/12

Blessed Sacrament, Labuan
=> Credits to Edd, who taking this wonderful pic! <=