Konbanwa and hello again! After disappearing for quite long time, now i’m back. Hohoho. With no other intention than sharing to all of you. J

With my upcoming third year in my study, which is my last year, all the preparation make me so busy with life. Not to mention that my life that involving families, friends and the most important one is my serving in ministry, to serve Jesus.

During this holiday (before the beginning of third year), i had experience many things that made my faith completely change. One of the biggest changes was involving my parents, which for me their marriage was useless, definitely no understanding between each other. To make it short, it seem like their marriage nearly have no chance of recovering, till i reach to my breaking point, i want to kill my father and his families. At this point, i really can feel Mr S. Invading my heart and all the negative energy pile up in my heart. For me, that is the darkest time in my life where i felt the strong urge to kill people.

What i want to share in this post is that, i believe that God had watch over us all the time. Although i had abandoned Him, He still calls me to come back HOME through His children. Firstly, i never thought that the people that i just made friend will be care for me, though there are many of my friends had always ignored about me. Wow, really can’t believe it. She really like a sister, thank you Jesus, for sending her.. After that, my sister from my own ministry had contacted me and prayed for me. This is really mean for me as i really need prayer to stop me from taking any unwanted actions. As i walk through my life, i had encountered one friend, which for me is important person. Why? Because he give me courage and wake me from my own misery. He is the another children that Jesus send for me to comfort me.

Through the entire journey, from the very start of the problem, till now, i can see that Jesus had never plan to abandon me, even though i’m mad and leave Him. He had sent many different people in my life to bring me back to Him. And i’m thankful that i still have Him and home to come back..