Hello again minna-san~~ >_<

As i go through my ‘Faith’ book, where all important stuff that related to my faith life are recorded, there’s something that attracting my attention. It start with bible verse from Isaiah 61:1-6

“ ... He has chosen me and sent me ...

   To heal the broken-hearted ...

      He has sent me to comfort all who mourn.”

These are some of the verse that attracts me, where the words of ‘broken-hearted’ and ‘comfort those who mourn’ are striking my right into my heart.

For me, this verse has a deep meaning towards people, who in surround us, which we often don’t really know, and most of it we don’t even know them. Every person with different personality had been chosen by God to spread His love and show it to other people.

Every little thing that you do, it can change other people around us. Even with the little things you help, the smile that you gave can make people lighten and feel the comfort. We can see this from the verse where God had chose and sent every one of us to heal the broken-heart and comfort all those who mourn.

People often deal with the reality where happiness, heart-broken and other feelings exist. This is where people can make a little change when they give something to other people. That ‘thing’ doesn’t have to be an expensive gift, money or other valuable things that need to be bought. It always is the little thing that we can easily give, something that we never had to buy using our money. That thing is our SMILE, the kindness, the willingness to help and to hear or listen to what people want to say/share, which us be the listener.

Believe it or not, people always not aware of the warmness of a smile, as for today generation prefer to had their ears stuck with earphones/headphones and mostly they always their ‘sour face’. They also not always aware of their surrounding, causing them to have less friends in the reality, but at the same time, have lots of friend in internet. For me, this is not a true socializing, where people stuck with their phone, iphone, laptop or whatever they use to surf the internet.

So, in the end, try to make friend, smile more often and be a listener. Because most of this little thing can light other people and give them hope to live on. Moreover, there’s nothing wrong in giving smile to others as it also can make you look younger. Choii~ hahahaha.

Konbanwa and hello again! After disappearing for quite long time, now i’m back. Hohoho. With no other intention than sharing to all of you. J

With my upcoming third year in my study, which is my last year, all the preparation make me so busy with life. Not to mention that my life that involving families, friends and the most important one is my serving in ministry, to serve Jesus.

During this holiday (before the beginning of third year), i had experience many things that made my faith completely change. One of the biggest changes was involving my parents, which for me their marriage was useless, definitely no understanding between each other. To make it short, it seem like their marriage nearly have no chance of recovering, till i reach to my breaking point, i want to kill my father and his families. At this point, i really can feel Mr S. Invading my heart and all the negative energy pile up in my heart. For me, that is the darkest time in my life where i felt the strong urge to kill people.

What i want to share in this post is that, i believe that God had watch over us all the time. Although i had abandoned Him, He still calls me to come back HOME through His children. Firstly, i never thought that the people that i just made friend will be care for me, though there are many of my friends had always ignored about me. Wow, really can’t believe it. She really like a sister, thank you Jesus, for sending her.. After that, my sister from my own ministry had contacted me and prayed for me. This is really mean for me as i really need prayer to stop me from taking any unwanted actions. As i walk through my life, i had encountered one friend, which for me is important person. Why? Because he give me courage and wake me from my own misery. He is the another children that Jesus send for me to comfort me.

Through the entire journey, from the very start of the problem, till now, i can see that Jesus had never plan to abandon me, even though i’m mad and leave Him. He had sent many different people in my life to bring me back to Him. And i’m thankful that i still have Him and home to come back..